I think I need to stay away from everyone and everything unless I get better. My existence here is only serving to depress everyone else who sees my suffering, and I only have bad, horrible news to share every day, because this pain gets exponentially worse every day and consumes everything.
zallard1
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I speedrun games sometimes. I also beat some Punch Out games blindfolded live on some GamesDoneQuick streams somehow idk
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I think my life is ruined.
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My surgeon called to say she cancelled my surgery and said I need clearance from my neurologist who I just learned isn't a neurologist anymore, meaning I need to get a new one with a new referral, and it took me almost a year to get that first neurologist after having a stroke.
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I have that appointment in 1 week. It is my last hope for having some solution to this nightmare quickly enough to still be able to have my ankle surgery. If I get told that nothing looks wrong and they can’t do anything… everything will be ruined, and I’ll be stuck with unyielding pain indefinitely
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The pain I am going through is constant and indescribable. It’s like one tick under the pain of my cracked tooth, which was something so painful that sleep was impossible
I went to the dentist yesterday and they found nothing, but gave me a referral to my endodontist for a better check on the tooth
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Then get referred somewhere else to tell me I’m fine, and so on, and so on. Maybe eventually I get something that resembles relief if I’m lucky, but by then, the ankle surgery gets rescheduled yet again
I have been doing this song and dance for the last 4 years straight. I feel like I’m losing hope
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I feel like the nerves in my face are being permanently damaged. I have done everything reasonable to try to help myself prevent a bad outcome like this, but it was clearly not enough.
I am expected to sit here and suffer until I get penciled in for another appointment to tell me I’m fine.
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The most cruel thing is going to a hospital because you’re in devastating life ruining pain, being told you’re ok, leaving the hospital with nothing, and being left to suffer with no path to relief because every follow up takes too long and I know every second of waiting will be unmitigated hell.
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I have been icing my face and neck almost constantly for the last 10 days. It feels marginally better while it's on, but immediately when I take it off, pain levels spike back to 100%.
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I will not be able to in time for my surgery.